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Saturday, November 24 // 0 narnian
“Get over him. He’s not even worth it. He’s not worth your tears. Yeah, you loved him. I know that. And I know that you can’t see yourself with anyone other than him. I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he’s thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he’s out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah, you’re gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, ‘cause straight up; it’s gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you’re watching. He knows it’s killing you, that’s why he’ll do it. Don’t let him get to you, ‘cause well, that’s what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn’t talk to you anymore? Do you honestly want to friends with an asshole like him? Thing is that you still do. But think. All he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and try to make you jealous.
Do you really want to hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he sees you with some other guy and not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is, because he has you : the girl of his dreams. He will realize the big mistake he made when he let you go, when he chose her over you. When he decided not to love you back the same way. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don’t you sit here thinking he won’t be ‘cause I know you are. But I guarantee you now; he will be sorry. So, don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call that you know will not come. Or that IM you know he will never send, simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he doesn’t see you online, he does it out of spite because he knows it’s killing you. When he walks past you, he’s gonna look past you, but you need to know that he will do it because he knows that somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I’m not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It’ll hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name, and how much he loves her on his profile. It’s all gonna hurt. Knowing you’re not the girl making him smile. Knowing you’re not the first girl he thinks about when he wakes up, or the one he thinks about when he goes to sleep. Knowing his phone doesn’t have your face anymore. Knowing if he hasn’t already, he will delete the album of pictures of you he had. Knowing you won’t be spending every single possible minute with him. Knowing there won’t be any more phone calls. Knowing there won’t be any more arguments about who loves the other more. And you know what, today, tomorrow, the day after, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message and you will instantly grab your phone hoping it’s him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; he’s got too much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn’t tell you. You will realize that he doesn’t care about you anymore and he won’t be the first you’ll turn to when you’re upset. He won’t be the person who’ll put the smile back on your face. And yeah, it’s gonna hurt. It’s gonna hurt a lot. But you know what you’re gonna do? You’re gonna hold your head up high. You’re gonna show him that you’re better that him and you don’t need him in your life. You’re gonna prove it that he made the biggest mistake of his life letting you go and that you never really needed him anyway.”
xoxo,
Zarith Sofee
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